I am so tired today. Actually, I have been for a few days now. I’m not exactly sure what’s up with me. The best way I can describe it, is that I feel like the blood has been drained out of me.
Is it the methotrexate? The prednisone? The dermatomyositis? Am I just lazy? Am I depressed?
It could be the medications, it could be the dermatomyositis.
I am lazy sometimes, but not generally for a stretch of this many days.
I don’t think I’m depressed. I remember thinking I was depressed after the split with my ex. I went to a therapist who said “You’re not depressed, you just lived with an asshole for too many years.” He really nailed it.
I am still amazed at how my life has changed over the last three years. It’s definitely been a journey. The journey, however, has taken a detour over the course of the last 18 months or so with the dermatomyositis. I get a little angry sometimes, I so don’t want to be the sick girl. I wanna be Action Girl again…..
I have learned that it is important to listen to my body. If I’m tired, I have to rest, or I’ll get sick. And I can’t afford to be sicker than I already am. I’m hopeful that one more night of lying low will have me back on my game.
Since I’ve been puny and lying around, I realized that I still had a little bonus money burning hole in my bank account. So I climb out there on the interwebs…. Two things I have been looking for, a bottlecap man and a retro-looking dress.
Found them both!!
Can't wait to get this little guy... any name suggestions?
I paid a little more than I had planned for my little man, but they are fairly rare, so I think he was worth it.
And DAMMIT, I deserve it!!
Hopefully charming and amusing TrippyBeth will return tomorrow!!!