Excited VS over-eager VS weirdo
This is a line that I have no idea how to traverse.
If I like someone, I like them, that’s pretty simple.
But, at this point in my life, I don’t know the proper (acceptable) way to show it.
My mind is constantly running in excess of the speed limit, and the ideas sometimes come fast and furious and I need (ok, want) to share them.
I don’t want to overwhelm anyone. And thanks to truly BATSHIT crazy women who may have come before me, a lot of guys are gun-shy.
Just because I have a lot of ideas or a lot of things to say to someone, doesn’t mean that I have fallen madly, insanely in love. I just have a lot of things to say… and if I dig someone, I want to say things to them. That’s just how I gyre (a round shape formed by a series of concentric circles… see you learned something today, you’re welcome).
I have now gathered enough experience to temper my excitement and try not to do anything to frighten the elusive normal, available man away.
Am I not being true to myself?
I think I’m still being me, just dialed down to a 6 instead of all the way up to 11.
If someone ever truly likes me and wants to be involved in a relationship with me, they’ll accept that about me and maybe it will even endear me to them.
“Communication without filters” is a phrase that was mentioned to me recently. I like that. My filter is mostly nonfunctioning anyway, although I seriously try to keep things a little in check. Really, I do!
I guess “Just be Yourself” isn’t bad advice… I’ll just keep the volume at a moderate level until I know that the listener is, indeed, a head banger.